TRIGGER WARNING – this story discusses severe depression, suicidal thoughts but also hope.
Am I useless? The misuse of alcohol and other drugs can have a damaging impact on individuals, families and communities. It is important to get support if you or someone you know needs help to manage a substance use issue.
My story starts with a young man (me) living what is considered a good life.
Well educated.
Loving and caring family.
Competitive sportsman with a lovely girlfriend.
A well-defined career path.
Sociable, mild party animal who enjoyed both a drink and party drug use.
Life’s pressures to perform gradually found me increasing my intake and strength of both alcohol and other drugs.
It was only a year ago, I felt like I was stuck going nowhere in life.
Morbid and depressed, best described my state of body and mind.
I used these substances as an escape from reality which led me down a spiral of depression.
Isolating from friends and family, found me spending my time at work or alone in my room.
Hiding from the real world, from which I was seeking escapism, experiencing signs of depression, anxiety and paranoia.
“The eyes were open, but there was nothing happening behind them”
It is a feeling of not wanting to be in the here and now.
Suicide would solve all my troubles!
And the hurt that I was inflicting on those whom cared for me.
How many ways are there to finish it – an awful lot.
But they all require a total commitment – something I couldn’t muster.
Thank goodness that I didn’t have the courage to go through with any of them.
Today, I am a born-again human.

I came across Complete Health Geelong on Facebook and saw that they had a men’s Mental Health and Fitness support group along with a lot of other co-ed support groups (swimming, walking, social, Martial arts, cooking, Mental Health and disability groups) that I could go to.
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